A friend of mine asked me to pick a number and said they will turn into interpretations, so I did.
The meaning to my selected numbers “111” and “22” (which I kept seeing them all the time on my clock or my phone or my laptop etc.):
“You will nurture love to full bloom within three days with the person of your choice. You are love far more than you can imagine. Do not deprive yourself of the deep feelings that are being offered to you. You will experience a great love and appreciation from others within the week.”
And I started crying because I saw a text message at the same time, from a company that I was hoping for a job interview after taking the aptitude test, has arrived. And I burst into tears not entirely because I was given a further opportunity, but because the person that I was thinking of, was Jesus.
I was so afraid of sinning ever since I started to read the Old Testament. I followed an inspirational person on YouTube, who initiated a study plan of bible reading in 1 year. And because of her, I have ordered a new journal bible and am planning to buy another one as a supplementary. There are so many questions about the Old Testament that I have so I also follow several different channels for bible commentary to get a bigger picture. The reason for this is because I fear God as much as I love Him. I know He is slow to anger and full of compassion, but I also remember He could cast us out if He lost hope in us. I never want to be there. Especially that dream He has spoken to me I still have a chance to go up, which means going to Heaven was never a guarantee for me.
I have been working on some controversial project lately that I struggled a lot. On one hand I thought this is what He wants me to do as He has basically closed every single door I used to know, and this new door has brought me people whom I healed and brought them to pray to Him. On the other hand, I am not sure if I will please Him or offend Him as I don’t know the answer to what I am doing is right or wrong. And that’s why I started to read the bible, because I remembered my favourite pastor told me, that is the only way you will know the answer to your question.
I have never been so emotionally fulfilled until I started reading the bible and watching so many kids’ bible YouTube channels. I feel so much calm, peace and yet, wisdom from all these learning. And most importantly I realised my whole perspective of life changed for the better. My son also enjoyed listening to what I have learnt every day and sometimes tells me what he has learnt at scripture lesson at school that day. I never thought I will become so obsessed with the knowledge and the rules from the bible. I finally am willing to put listening to God’s word as my first priority.
It feels so incredible I can cry like every minute. The peace you will get is simply incomparable. Totally mind blowing. I cannot believe how I put this off for so many decades. No wonder I kept making the same mistakes. The funny thing is that, now instead of praying for the people I love, the job I want, I simply pray for Him to forgive my sins and never leave me. So, the minute I got the message, the minute I got the text, I knew, He is still with me. And that is worth everything. For one full year I have been struggling with earthly matters, and it took me exactly one year to fully heal from the trauma that happened 2 years ago. I lost hope several times, but I never lose faith. And only faith that brought me back strength and courage each time. And by faith I became more and more optimistic even at the darkest time because I know Jesus is waiting for me at the end of the tunnel with my loved ones.
It is hard to explain to non-Christian about faith at their darkest time. But I have come to realise that I am able to help them to get into the habit of praying. A new start. A new beginning. To know that Jesus is faithful and gentle. We can always count on Him. And there is really a God who does miracles. I realised I could be a Messager to them, as I was able to understand their situations and circumstances without them telling me anything at all! It must be God’s intention to put me into this role and I will carry on as a life mission. But first, I need to read the bible thoroughly.
So, I will always tell people who are suffering to pray, to meditate and to rest. He will give your ideas on how to heal, he will give you talents and skills to have a new beginning, and he will give you peace by sending you genuine people who knows how to love and support you and remove those who are not until they are healed. Looking back at 2022, this is exactly what I have learnt and achieved. I would never have imagined that I could start a webpage, write blogs, book, songs, start a YouTube channel, create affirmation videos, set up Etsy shops and also doing volunteering work while looking for my dream job. It all happened from April 2022 which is nine months only. Anything is possible, if you walk with God. And I have started a new journey again this year 2023, full of energy and empowerment. Let’s see how much I can say next year this time ^;^ Have Faith!
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